Pain

Pain comes in all forms. Quick like a lightening clap. A sharp stabbing jolt through your body. Pain can be dull and seethe in slow, digging deep into your bones and hurt like a faint pulse. Pain can wake you up in the middle of the night- make you shoot straight up out of bed with a gasp as though an intruder creeps in your midst. Yet, pain can keep you from ever falling a sleep in the first place. It keeps you tossing and turning until your eyelids finally give up trying. Pain can be visible as with a cut or a bruise. There can be swelling and redness. And sometimes, the swelling cannot be seen. It sits deep within your heart and makes your insides turn and twist. The worst kind of pain, is the pain you cannot express with words or even emotion. The pain that stays burred within your soul. The pain of losing a loved one or getting a grim diagnosis. The kind of pain that others do not understand. Many times, the visible pain can be healed with medication or bandages. A trip made to the doctor's office can decipher between bad pain and tolerable pain. The doctor can make much of the pain go away. Some of us athletes elate in pain. We punish ourselves in workouts and races just so we can feel pain and have our bodies natural pain killers kick in to give us a self medicated rush. But nobody asks for emotional pain. And yes, there are specialist you can see to help you talk though your pain, but really no one can understand what is going on inside of you and no one can take away those feelings. Its not until you come to terms with the situation and yourself that you can have relief from emotional pain.

(I found this draft on my blog recently and do not remember writing it. Sometimes when I get caught up in the moment of writing, I go somewhere else and do not return until the thought is gone.)